In Need

Okay, I'm back. I didn't fall off the face of the earth...I just had a baby. T is doing great, it's just the rest of us that are trying to keep our heads on straight.
Big brother C has gone from ignoring T, to being fascinated with his fuzzy head, to touching that fuzzy head a little too firmly, to hitting his own head in deferred rage. Now he openly declares that he wants to hit Baby T, yet thankfully he holds himself back (for now). Well, at least we're talking about it. Not to mention hitting, screaming, throwing tantrums and peeing on the floor.
Thank God for my mother who has spent every day of the last 2 weeks at our house helping us manage all of this chaos. My dad has also chipped in to play with C and take him out for hardware store therapy. Our church has begun the meal parade, and it is amazing to eat the lovingly prepared dinners from people that we know and don't know. So God has really provided people to help us in our neediness.
I feel no shame in being needy. We're all needy, and it feels good just to admit it. It also feels more real when I reach out to help someone else, because I am familiar with need. I don't deceive myself: my needs are paltry compared with those of many in this world. But I do feel desperate at times and at the end of my own resources. Prayer has not been as much of a problem for me now as it has in the past (like when my first child was born, as some of my friends might remember). Asking God for his strength is like breathing now. And while I am longing for C's emotional equilibrium, I hope I remain in this place of awareness of my need.