Pardon this emotive mood I'm in tonight. My husband goes out of town tomorrow until Sunday and I am gearing up to go solo with the boys. I am realizing how angry and annoyed I am with my children lately--very poor timing for this weekend, but I guess this is what it takes for me to truly depend on God for strength...again. Do you ever find yourself asking questions that have no answer? Questions like:
Why does my baby only sleep for 45 minutes, but he can't go back to sleep even though he is still so tired?
Why does my 3-year old dance around the room, pee running down his leg, denying that he needs to go to the bathroom?
Why does it bother me so much when Callan takes FOREVER to wash his hands or put on his pants?
Why do babies seem to burp, then sharply turn their heads away from the burp cloth to spit up all over my shirt?
Why, if I do one load of laundry every day, when I skip a day there are 3 loads of laundry to do?
Why can't life be like knitting, which follows logical and mathematical patterns, delivering just what it promises in return for your efforts?
Speaking of knitting, I finished Thatcher's knitted cargo pants, and I'll post a picture when we get our camera fixed. I dropped it on the sidewalk only a week or so after we bought it--arggh!
Anyway, my new project I can't disclose yet because it is a present for a baby named Kate, due to arrive soon, so I'd better get knitting.
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Hey, Leslie--I hear you--this job of motherhood is certainly hard work and unglamorous. You rarely emote like this in person--writing is supposed to help process emotions, so maybe the blog will be a beneficial thing! I'll be praying for the fam during Matt's travels.
oh, my. i can't believe you can somehow find time to knit with the boys! you are my inspiration. perhaps, i will take out that crazy lace pattern that i'd been working on since two years ago. ;)
your frustrations resonate with me as well... sometimes it scares me how angry i can get with a ten month old for not drinking/eating as much as i want. yes, need for grace...
i will keep your family in my prayers this weekend, esp as chris will be gone for a while for an interview.
we may be coming closer to you guys soon. we're seriously considering d.c. :)
Leslie, you are great! I hope your week has gone better than expected. And thanks for the salad dressing advice. xoxo
I'm immature, so I'm just giggling at the word beeyotch (can't bring myself to type it). Hope you are holding up well...
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